I could not help but share this, my friend Dee Meyer
with KA'ryna SH'ha shared it on Facebook and it makes so much sense to me on how
I feel as a woman, how i feel in expressing myself or being who I am , the urge and need to be myself but then
the holding back and the pain of not really living to my full human / feminine
potential. Life is so much bigger than we imagine it to be, so much more to
learn and explore if we allow ourselves the courage too. Enjoy the below with
an open mind, read the lines to understand it in your own way and allow the
courage of love, experience and growth to be with you .
“My Blood Moon
Mysteries Revealed…
The dam broke open in me last night….spilled over in a raging torrent of grace-filled love. I wept, I raged and I screamed my way through a night of full activations and awakenings. Railed against my own judgments, spewing out long held desires and deep dark remembrances. It was time for the woman in me to rise into the goddess waiting to be seen.
I let thoughts move through like quicksilver beading in a super-heated crucible. I demanded to know what right the divine had in holding me hostage in this sea of insanity! I made my pleas known to the divine mother. I called out to the mother again and again. I called her out…for all of her hiding. I called myself out for all of my own (hiding).
A raging sexual fever /fervor of passionate awareness engulfed me as I felt the goddess in me quiver and ignite. I called myself on the hot-seat for my placating and obedience to niceness and kindness at the expense of the voice that waits for expression. I openly and loudly confronted my prejudices and ignorance. Self-judgments were shredded into tiny filaments as I held these mysterious beliefs up to the light of the womb of being.
I swore loudly and yelled knowingly, howling at the injustices plaguing my life and all beings. A raging fiery river of love filled me with such a passion that it exploded in an implosive field of awareness.
I came to know the most suppressed parts of my being I could no longer contain. Convulsive waves ripped through me moment by moment until my whole body was set aflame. Condition after condition of conditional beliefs arose to be annihilated in the flaming rituals of my Grace-induced Transcendence.
I could no longer hold back the force of my being brithng in multiple dimensions. I knew that all I could do was let it all fall apart into the arms of the all-embracing Love emerging form my soul! There was’/is no way to contain the darkness enfolding in the mystery of the unknown arising in me.
I was possessed by the spirit of the holy of holies…the mother substance drowned this girl in a bath of sorrow-filled grief. Grief for letting something beautiful and aware be contracted and hid. The raw truth escaped like steam form an over-heated kettle.
Time for this being to speak her truth, sing her song, light her path….beat her fist into the beating heart of the Mother-Lodge. Time for this woman to meet herself and make peace with the power of the Father she loves. The true father who oversees not overbears.
The true father, who lovingly respects and guards the feminine, not the father who oppresses and denies her voice.
Make peace with the Mother of all embodiment's within me…and face the father of all being who shares knowledge of the tree of light.
I wasn't going to back down…I wouldn't give in until I heard the sound arising from the breath all creation.
In those moments of total insanity I found my way to total sanity. My voice became a bell ringing out. The peeling bells of gnosis spoke to me and said, “ rage and grow quiet, scream and be still, unravel and be opened by the mighty sound….the voice of the thunder precedes the lightening of dawn….the human form can no longer be contained!
Your wildness is the answer to all you seek…let the living rivers of light transfigure your heart into pure radiance….it is time to set your whole self free!”
I am now in the process of liberating the cause within my being. I do not know where this will lead. I only know it is time to be unto the holy presence that arises to me this loving moment of truth unspoken.
Transmission after transmission is flooding in....after the storm comes the calming realization of what is to come.
As I share this, the most vulnerable part of my heart shakes… with the awareness of this naked soul exposing all that she is.”
The dam broke open in me last night….spilled over in a raging torrent of grace-filled love. I wept, I raged and I screamed my way through a night of full activations and awakenings. Railed against my own judgments, spewing out long held desires and deep dark remembrances. It was time for the woman in me to rise into the goddess waiting to be seen.
I let thoughts move through like quicksilver beading in a super-heated crucible. I demanded to know what right the divine had in holding me hostage in this sea of insanity! I made my pleas known to the divine mother. I called out to the mother again and again. I called her out…for all of her hiding. I called myself out for all of my own (hiding).
A raging sexual fever /fervor of passionate awareness engulfed me as I felt the goddess in me quiver and ignite. I called myself on the hot-seat for my placating and obedience to niceness and kindness at the expense of the voice that waits for expression. I openly and loudly confronted my prejudices and ignorance. Self-judgments were shredded into tiny filaments as I held these mysterious beliefs up to the light of the womb of being.
I swore loudly and yelled knowingly, howling at the injustices plaguing my life and all beings. A raging fiery river of love filled me with such a passion that it exploded in an implosive field of awareness.
I came to know the most suppressed parts of my being I could no longer contain. Convulsive waves ripped through me moment by moment until my whole body was set aflame. Condition after condition of conditional beliefs arose to be annihilated in the flaming rituals of my Grace-induced Transcendence.
I could no longer hold back the force of my being brithng in multiple dimensions. I knew that all I could do was let it all fall apart into the arms of the all-embracing Love emerging form my soul! There was’/is no way to contain the darkness enfolding in the mystery of the unknown arising in me.
I was possessed by the spirit of the holy of holies…the mother substance drowned this girl in a bath of sorrow-filled grief. Grief for letting something beautiful and aware be contracted and hid. The raw truth escaped like steam form an over-heated kettle.
Time for this being to speak her truth, sing her song, light her path….beat her fist into the beating heart of the Mother-Lodge. Time for this woman to meet herself and make peace with the power of the Father she loves. The true father who oversees not overbears.
The true father, who lovingly respects and guards the feminine, not the father who oppresses and denies her voice.
Make peace with the Mother of all embodiment's within me…and face the father of all being who shares knowledge of the tree of light.
I wasn't going to back down…I wouldn't give in until I heard the sound arising from the breath all creation.
In those moments of total insanity I found my way to total sanity. My voice became a bell ringing out. The peeling bells of gnosis spoke to me and said, “ rage and grow quiet, scream and be still, unravel and be opened by the mighty sound….the voice of the thunder precedes the lightening of dawn….the human form can no longer be contained!
Your wildness is the answer to all you seek…let the living rivers of light transfigure your heart into pure radiance….it is time to set your whole self free!”
I am now in the process of liberating the cause within my being. I do not know where this will lead. I only know it is time to be unto the holy presence that arises to me this loving moment of truth unspoken.
Transmission after transmission is flooding in....after the storm comes the calming realization of what is to come.
As I share this, the most vulnerable part of my heart shakes… with the awareness of this naked soul exposing all that she is.”
KA'ryna
SH'ha with Dee Meyer
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